tomorrow i embark upon the last of my trips for my job. as a fellow for an amazing non-profit, this youth conference is to be the culmination of all of the hard work that i have done for the organization over the course of the last year. with youth to be gathering from all across the country i wonder if it will be a success or an utter failure. i hope it is the earlier than the later, but at the same time, it makes me wonder as to how i have truly faired in this organization. have i made a difference during my time here.
i have pondered over the question many times and i can't help but feel that i have not had a significant impact upon this organization and this group of people that i love so much. yes, love is the only way to describe the reasons for why i joined, why i believed and still believe and have aspirations to be in the leadership ranks in the future. and that is why i have raised the bar of my participation so high. because i believe in the organization's mission, and more so, the people.
i hope that i have not failed in my quest to make this organization better than when i had started out. when i piece together the things that i have done, it's almost an illusion to think that i am worthy of praise. we'll see starting tomorrow if my coming this far was worth the journey. i leave with a heavy heart, but with the promise to return....hopefully.
